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  He tied my arms and legs to their counterparts on the chair with neck cloths. Tight enough to be secure but carefully placed so as not to hurt. He had to be a healer. A mercenary wouldn’t care if he hurt me. A mercenary probably would’ve killed me outright.

  When he was done he picked up a pair of buckskin trousers and a rumpled linen shirt from the floor and dressed quickly. Then he took a seat on the end of the bed, picked up the gun once again, and aimed directly at me.

  Blue eyes stared at me for a long minute, something unreadable swimming in their depths. Then he nodded.

  “Shall we try this again? Why are you here?”

  There wasn’t any point lying about it. “I was sent to kill you.”

  “I understand that much. The reason is what escapes me.”

  I lifted a shoulder. Let him make what he would of the gesture. I had no idea why Lucius had sent me after a sunmage.

  “You didn’t ask?”

  “Why would I?” I said, surprised by the question.

  He frowned. “You just kill whoever you’re told to? It doesn’t matter why?”

  “I do as I’m ordered.” Disobedience would only bring pain. Or worse.

  His head tilted, suddenly intent. His gaze was uncomfortable, and it was hard to shake the feeling he saw more than I wanted. “You should seek another line of work.”

  As if I had a choice. I looked away from him, suddenly angry. Who was he to judge me?

  “Back to silence, is it? Very well, let’s try another tack. This isn’t, by chance, about that Rousselline pup I stitched up a few weeks ago?”

  Pierre Rousselline was alpha of one of the Beast Kind packs. He and Lucius didn’t always exist in harmony. But I doubted Lucius would kill over the healing of a young Beast. A sunmage, one this strong—if his claim of being able to maintain the light until dawn were true——was an inherently risky target, even for a Blood lord. Even for the Blood Lord.

  So, what had this man—who was, indeed, a healer if he spoke the truth—done?

  His brows lifted when I didn’t respond. “You really don’t know, do you? Well. Damn.”

  The “damn” came out as a half laugh. There was nothing amusing in the situation that I could see. Either he was going to kill me or turn me over to the human authorities or I was going to have to tell Lucius I had failed. Whichever option came to pass, nothing good awaited me. I stayed silent.

  “Some other topic of conversation, then?” He regarded me with cool consideration. “I presume, given that my sunlight seems to be holding you, that I’m right in assuming that you are Lucius’ shadow?”

  I nodded. There was little point denying it with his light holding me prisoner. There were no others of my kind in the City. Only a wraith is caged by the light of the sun.

  A smile spread over his face, revealing he had two dimples, not one. Not just pretty, I decided. He was . . . alluring wasn’t the right word. The Blood and the Fae are alluring—an attraction born of icy beauty and danger. I am immune to that particular charm. No, he was . . . inviting somehow. A fire on a winter’s night, promising warmth and life.

  His eyes held genuine curiosity. “You’re really a wraith?”

  “Yes.”

  He laughed and the sound was sunlight, warm and golden, a smooth caress against the skin.

  “Is that so amusing?”

  “If the stories are to believed, you’re supposed to be ten feet tall with fangs and claws.”

  I tilted my head. “I am not Blood or Beast Kind. No fangs. Or claws.”

  He looked over my shoulder, presumably at my dagger. “Just one perhaps? But really . . . no one ever said you were—” He stopped abruptly.

  “What?” The question rose from my lips before I could stop myself.

  This time his smile was crooked. “Beautiful.”

  I snorted. Beautiful? Me? No. I knew that well enough. The Fae are beautiful and even the Blood in their own way. I am only odd with gray eyes—a color no Fae or true demi-Fae ever had—and red hair that stands out like a beacon amongst the silvery hues of the Blood. “That’s because I’m not.”

  He looked surprised. “I know the Blood don’t use mirrors, but you must have seen yourself.”

  “Maybe the Night World has different standards.”

  “Then the Night World needs its eyesight examined,” he said with another crooked smile. “Gods and suns.”

  Silence again. He studied me and I looked away, discomfited, wondering what angle he was trying to work by flattering me. Did he think I could sway Lucius into granting mercy? If so, then he was in for a severe disappointment.

  “What happens now?” I asked when the silence started to strain my nerves.

  “That may well depend on you.”

  “How so?”

  His fingers drummed lightly on the barrel of the pistol. “There are several possibilities. Firstly, you might try something foolish like trying to get free. In that case, I’d probably have to shoot you. Gunshots attract attention, so I would expect to find the authorities on my doorstep. At which point you would become their problem if you were still alive.”

  I swallowed. Dead or captured. I didn’t particularly like that option. “And if I’m not foolish?”

  “Then, I imagine by the time the sun rises, I’ll have decided whether or not to set you free to run home and tell your master that he picked the wrong man to trifle with this time.”

  I winced at the thought of returning to Lucius to tell him I’d failed. Lucius is unpleasantly inventive when displeased.

  The sunmage frowned. “What?”

  I shook my head, staying silent.

  His frown deepened. “Will he hurt you?”

  I shrugged. It was likely. In fact, almost certain. But not enough to permanently damage or kill me. Ignoring my current spectacular failure, I was uniquely valuable to Lucius. No other Blood lord had a wraith at his command. My kind are rare. The Fae are not prolific even when mated to their own kind. And wraiths are not born of Fae and Fae.

  “You don’t have to return.” He sounded almost angry.

  At this I laughed and there was nothing light or warm in the sound. “You really haven’t spent much time in the Night World, have you?”

  “I try not to,” he said. The pistol flashed suddenly as he tossed it, flipping it with a showy twirl and catching it with surprising ease.

  My gaze sharpened. There was one possible way of deflecting some of Lucius’ displeasure. If I brought him information, if I could find a weakness in this man, that might be enough to buy me back some favor. “Who taught you to fight? You’re a healer, aren’t you? That’s what sunmages do.”

  The gun glinted again as he twirled it a second time. “Most of them.” Another twirl as he considered me. “Including me. But my brother’s a Templar. He can be overprotective.”

  A Templar? Who in the name of the lords of hell was this man? “A Templar taught you?” I tried to keep the impressed tone out of my voice but failed.

  That earned me another smile. “Templars can be insistent.”

  I could imagine. Arguing with a divine warrior would be imbecilic by anyone’s standards. Even Lucius tended toward leaving well enough alone when it came to the Templars. Which begged the question of exactly why I’d been sent to kill someone so closely connected to one.

  The whole thing stank of intrigue. It made the back of my neck prickle and I twitched my bound hands, wanting to rub the sensation away.

  The sunmage spun the pistol one last time, then laid it across his lap. Within easy reach, I noted.

  “It’s a long time until dawn. If we’re going to sit here all night, I’d rather know who I’m talking to. Do I call you ‘shadow’ or do you have a name?”

  My name. This time my eyes prickled rather than my neck. Lucius calls me “my shadow.” The Fae call me “soulless” when they deign to acknowledge my presence. The Blood and the Beast Kind mostly don’t use any name at all. No one had asked my name in a very long time.

>   I blinked and gnawed the inside of my cheek, seeking control. Distance. Cold detachment.

  It was how I lived my life.

  How I survived.

  A blade can’t afford to feel. This man, with his smiles and warmth, was dangerous.

  “I’m Simon,” he said quietly. “Really, Shadow, you may as well tell me.”

  Simon. It suited him. It sounded clean and strong. Like no one I should have anything to do with and no one that should want to have anything to do with me. But my mother, before the healer-wife had proclaimed me for what I was, had given me a name. One that was completely inappropriate, given the life I lead. For the first time in a long, long time, I wanted someone to know it was mine.

  But I wasn’t that foolish; this wasn’t a story with a storybook happy ending. And names have power. “ ‘ Shadow’ will do. It’s what they call me,” I said, lifting my chin.

  “I didn’t ask what ‘they’ call you,” he said. “I asked your name.”

  I stayed quiet. He watched me for a long silent time, something sad in his eyes.

  “Very well, Shadow,” he said eventually. “Have it your way. For now.”

  After that we talked. Or rather he talked and I mostly listened. The topics seemed innocuous, but I got the feeling he was testing me. Though to what aim, I couldn’t tell. He told me about his Templar brother, and also about his family, though I noticed he couched everything in careful generalities. No names. Besides the Templar, there were apparently two younger sisters.

  I couldn’t imagine growing up with other children. Lucius had taken me—bought me—when the Fae rejected me. But the Blood do not turn children, so I had no companions my own age. The lone child in a sea of adults, tended by the Trusted and skirted warily by the Blood. Treated more like a pet, or rather, perhaps a hound puppy—raised for a purpose. Valued but not indulged. Treated with a firm hand in case I turned vicious.

  I’d never had a family. I had seen my mother amongst the Fae sometimes when they left the Veiled World, but she never spoke to me. Never even looked at me. As for my father, well, his identity was a mystery no one had ever seen fit to enlighten me about.

  I found myself leaning forward as Simon spoke, drawn again against my will, like a moth seeking light.

  I straightened whenever I noticed, reminding myself exactly what it was that happened to moths that flew into bright lights. Simon the sunmage could be nothing for me but trouble. And the reverse, even more so. Lucius already wanted him dead. His efforts would redouble if he thought I had developed some sort of fascination for the sunmage.

  But, despite the cold hard facts, it was difficult to make myself pull back and not bask in the sheer novelty of someone speaking to me like I was a person.

  Amidst his talk of his life, he kept throwing unexpected questions at me. About the Night World and my life there. I didn’t answer. The truth of my life was nothing I wanted to share with this man. Nothing he would understand. Besides, I didn’t want Lucius to have another transgression to lay at my feet.

  Still, I got the feeling he was reading more than I wanted from my silences. But against my will, his warmth spread to me, easing a little of the icy ache I’ve carried inside all my life. It made me feel slightly dizzy and part of me wanted to escape to the clarity of the shadow. Which was never going to happen while the sun beat down on my skin in the few places it was bared by the black of my hunting outfit.

  After a while, I started to feel more than dizzy. Hot and flushed. For a moment I feared it was the need calling to me, but then I dismissed the possibility. It was too soon, even if I’d been trying to push the limits of my tolerance lately, delaying the urge as long as possible. This felt different. The need feels hot, yes. But it’s the dead scorching heat of the hottest part of a flame, the diamond note of a siren’s song. Deadly. It demands as it burns, nothing warm or gentle in it.

  This felt more like sitting too close to a fire for too long.

  “Are you all right?” Simon asked as I tried to take a deep breath to ease the heat.

  “I’m a little warm,” I admitted reluctantly. Maybe it was the wrist-to-ankle black I wore. Leather and heavy cotton are not the coolest of choices in summer.

  He scanned me, a different purpose behind that gaze now. I could almost feel the switch to healer again. Which maybe could prove useful. If he came closer I could . . . what exactly?

  No plausible course of action sprang immediately to mind. I couldn’t shadow in sunlight, and we had already established he was at least a match for me whilst I was without my powers. Unless I could somehow get him to leave the room, give me a chance to reach a window, wards or no, and try to reach the darkness.

  I slumped a little in the chair, trying to look sicker than I felt.

  He studied me awhile longer; then his palm hit the bed with a thump. “Sunburn,” he pronounced, sounding disgusted with himself. “I imagine you don’t go out much in daylight.”

  “No.” The Night World isn’t much for daylight activities and I live by their hours. My skin was Fae-fair anyway, not pure white—there was a slightly golden cast to it—and it had only grown fairer over the years I’d lived with Lucius. The Blood are pale, and those of the Night World other than the Beast Kind—the Trusted and the blood-locked and the Nightseekers—tend to emulate the look.

  Still, Simon wasn’t about to leave the room for a sunburn, so I had to try another plan. “Maybe you could turn it off?” I jerked my chin at the nearest lamp.

  He grinned. “I don’t think so. You’d just go ‘poof’ and then where would we be?”

  Hell. Pretty and dangerous and not stupid. “I do not go ‘poof,’” I said, trying to sound trustworthy.

  That made him laugh and the warmth in my cheeks flared higher. Somehow I didn’t think I could blame the sun for that.

  “Maybe not, but you’d still vanish as soon as you could. You might even try to kill me again.”

  I shook my head. “You have my dagger.” And even without that minor detail, I couldn’t see myself trying again now that he knew about me—and now that I knew more about him. For one thing, there was the sobering image of a revenge-bound Templar knight rampaging through the Night World to separate my head from my body to contemplate. And for another . . . No. I wasn’t going to think of any other reason.

  “So I do,” he said. He stood and came over to me, bending down to look more closely at my face. “Too late for a shield if you’re already burned. I was careless. I apologize.”

  I stared at him. I’d tried to kill him and he was apologizing for sunburn? A more normal reaction would be to try to kill me. At least, that would be the case in the Night World. Violence for violence. A life for a life. Do worse unto others until they stop trying to defeat you.

  But his world was different. So different it didn’t seem real to me.

  “Can’t you . . .” I didn’t exactly know what it was that sunmages did to heal.

  He shook his head, nodded at the lamps. “Not while those are still burning.”

  So he did have limits. I filed the information away carefully with the other things he had revealed. Then tried to press the one small advantage I had. His healer instinct. It was a weakness that might make him careless. Part of me felt guilty for using it against him, turning his warmth into something darker, but I locked emotion down ruthlessly. I needed to survive this night. I would use whatever means necessary. “I just sit here and burn, then?”

  He frowned for a moment; then his face cleared. “I have just the thing.”

  He vanished out of sight and I heard the wardrobe door open and close behind me.

  When he reappeared, he was holding a battered straw hat—wide brimmed and high peaked—that looked as though it had been soundly trampled, then punched roughly back into shape. He held it out proudly. “Perfect.”

  He held it over my head, and the light cut off for a moment. Not enough to let me shadow—I couldn’t do that as long as any sunlight touched my body—but enough to ease t
he heat in my face. Then he pulled the hat away.

  “What?”

  “It won’t fit with your hair like that.” He gestured at the twisted knot of braids at the back of my head.

  I wriggled my fingers, which was about as much movement as I had in my hands with my arms tied. “I can hardly take it down.”

  “I’ll do it.”

  Before I could protest, he started sliding pins free and unwinding my braids with ease. Each brush of his fingers against my skull made me want to simultaneously purr and run away.

  No man had ever run his hands over my hair before. I rarely wore it down in public and never for the hunt. And no man came to visit me in private.

  This man wouldn’t be either.

  I bit the inside of my lip, welcoming the pain to remind me of what was real and what was not as his hands moved.

  At last he had my hair arranged to his satisfaction and slid the hat gently into place. It smelled of him. Warm spice scented the air around me, soaking into my skin with each breath I took.

  Dawn felt a long, long time away.

  In the end I fell silent again in self-defense, trying to draw my shields around me even as he tried to coax me into conversation. It felt oh so tempting to soften and bend and let him draw me out.

  I couldn’t afford soft. I couldn’t afford to want something. Wanting can be used as a weapon against you.

  Simon eventually stopped talking and instead sat silently, watching me. That was almost harder to take. But I couldn’t quite make myself look away from those blue eyes.

  The clock by his bed seemed to tick very loudly in the silence that bloomed between us.

  “Dawn soon,” he said after who knows how long.

  I looked toward the window. Sure enough, the sky was lightening: not true dawn, not yet. Like the Blood, I’m sensitive to the rhythm of day and night. In daylight, my powers work if I am underground, but not without a greater effort. Dawn is the time to retreat to safety. To curl myself away in my room and sleep while the Blood slumber and the Trusted stand watch.

  I could feel the dawn coming. And, as always, wanted to hold it off. Though this time I wasn’t sure if it was the loss of my powers I dreaded or the fact that I would most likely never see Simon again.